Dang schedule!

So most of you that know me....know that I take most things in stride. I am not too much of a complainer and I try to stay positive and optimistic about most things. But the last month has proved to me just how much I seriously dislike my husband working nights. I used to think it wasn't so bad. Okay I retract that last statement, it's always been bad lol
I love that Matt's job provides lots of security for our family, but it's never ending cycle of inconsistency can wear on ones life (mostly mine j/k). And being that in a recent conversation with my husband we came to the conclusion that we have spent more than 1/2 our relationship with him on nights (not including deployments or "trips"), makes me sad.
I am not only a stay at home mom. I volunteer, run around with the kids, and try to keep myself sane with "me" time. But when most of what I do revolves around my husbands schedule and it all of sudden changes at the drop of a hat, it can be pretty frustrating. So here I am...doing dinner, the night time routine with the kids, watching worthless television, and going to bed alone. I want him home, not only to be here to help, but because the kids and I actually like to be around him. Maybe I'm being overzealous!

Maybe lots of you can relate. Maybe this is foreign to some. This is not a "bitch fest" on my behalf. Just simply an insight to how overwhelmed I feel here lately. But I am gonna keep on smiling and cherish the moments we do get together. After all, he is mine until the end of time :)