So today started out great. I got in the shower, got dressed, and got the kids ready for our day. On the way to take Alanna to school I was stopped behind a truck at a stop sign. Brycen had taken off his seat belt and as I leaned back to help him get it back on, I let my foot off the break just enough for my car to roll in to the guy in front of me's tow hitch. UGH!!!! So a busted headlight and scuffed up bumper later, my day was off to a sarcastically fantastic start. What was even worse was on this very day 2 years ago, I was rear ended. As the day progressed I found myself getting very angry, feeling like I had to blame it on something, or someone. I have just got caught up with everything financially and was ready to start planning for the next few months (which include Halloween, the kids, b-days, the USMC Ball, Christmas, New Years, and tons of parties). So to think about having to pay my $500 deductible was just stressing me out. Have you ever had something happen on one day where it just brings up all the crappy stuff that has happened before it? Well today I did!
Matt is in Colorado on training for a few weeks so of course this would happen. See it always seems like when he goes on training's that's when I get this "curse" that us military wives speak of. He was gone for 10 1/2 months and nothing major happened. The expenses we had on his "piece of work" truck were somewhat anticipated before he left. But when he leaves on training's it gets pretty stressful in the Grisham House.
As the day went on I was mopey and just kind of under the weather. I am stressed out and I am just plain mad. But as I sit here, I am thinking that I am incredibly lucky that no one is hurt, that it was just minor damage, and the other vehicle was fine. Sometimes we get so caught up in the things that are going on in our "own" lives that we forget that we have a lot to be truly blessed by.
I sometimes vent to my husband in a condemning manner without meaning to. Yes he has had lots of things go wrong with his truck, yes he has spent money at the wrong times on the wrong things, yes we have spent most of our marriage cleaning up our past money matters. I can try to blame the stress on the events leading up to now, but in all honesty the past is the past and I need to leave it that way.
You know the saying "you never know what you have until it's gone"? Well I have learned a thing or two about that phrase myself. I have a lot of times been so caught up in what I do for the family that I forget what he does. Yes, I take care of most everything around here....so I thought. It wasn't until my husband left on his last deployment that I realized just how much he did do. It wasn't until I was taking out the trash, feeding and bathing the dog, washing the car, grilling some food, washing dishes after dinner, grabbing a chair to hang up pics, or doing any handy work at all. That I realized that "wow, he really does a lot more than I give him credit for". Upon my realization I did share with him my revelation so to speak. He really was so thankful just to hear that I did appreciate all the things he does for us, as well as our country.
I guess my point is that we all have a lot on our plates and things that stress us out. But it is very important to not forget about the ones who sacrifice and do things for us as well. If it wasn't for my husbands undying commitment to his family and our country, we would not have a leg to stand on.
Don't allow the past to determine how you feel one day to the next. Live each day as it is meant be...NEW!
Tell the ones you love that you love and appreciate them. And last but not least, never ever take for granted the blessings you have in life, for they may not always last forever.
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